Thursday, August 30, 2012

ജീവിതത്തിനും മരണത്തിനും ഇടയില്‍













ആരുടെ അനന്തമാം വീഥികള്‍ 
നിന്ടെ കാലുകളെ തളര്ത്തിയോ 
ഇന്നിന്ടെ നന്മയോ 
നാളെയുടെ പ്രതീക്ഷയോ 
നിന്നെ നയിച്ചത് 
നീ കണ്ട കാഴ്ചകള്‍ 
സ്നേഹത്തിന്ടെ കണ്ണടയിലൂടെ 
സത്യത്തെ വെറുതതോ
സ്വന്തം സത്യം കാണാന്‍ ആഗ്രഹിച്ചതോ
ഹൃദയം നുറുങ്ങുന്ന വേദനയിലും
ചിരിയുടെ മുഖം മൂടി നീ അണിഞ്ഞു
മരണം കവര്‍ന്ന ശ്വാസത്തിലും
നിന്റെ പുഞ്ചിരി മായാതെ നിന്നു

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Ferrari world..

Normally i begin my posts with intro of the subject, but here i would limit it to these words "Ferrari world, abu dhabi"  and if you don't know the place, google it !!!

When i first came to abu dhabi, the eagerness of a traveller in me searched for places to explore in the city. This landed me with the first two most attractive destinations in the capital of UAE. The shaik zayed grand mosque and ferrari world. I considered both options, being an ardent visitor to temples at my homeland, my ideal evenings are characterised by the smell of agarbathis and the diety glowing the light from oil lit lamps where every mind chants a silent prayer. So this made me addicted to every place of devotion, mind you i have visited enough christian churches in my life so that jesus dsn't feel i am partial to krsihna :). The truth is i love god, in whichever form he appears or is called in. And i wanted to visit the famous mosque so much. The fact is that , till date i have not been able to yet but i am sure i will go there in future. 

And about the other destination in the list. Ferrari world, i was told that abu dhabi had a formula one track somewhere and i had seen this building that looks like a spider from top on internet made me think somehow this was a part of it. so when my husband told me we should go to ferrari world some day, all i thought was, what is there to see??? Later on i came to know that ferrari world is a ferrari themed park where you get to do a lot of rides just like our veega land :P from my very knowledgeable friend Hasli (well she always had an answer to my every question, not that all of them were true or i believed every one of them, but she atleast cared enough to answer me and i love her for that :) )About Ferrari again all i knew was that they had very expensive cars. Now why were they expensive or actually how expensive was never one of my problems as i was never a car person. 

I never intended to find out more as i was told that the tickets were very expensive and it is not really worth it. So i let it at that. But i honestly had a pang of fear whenever my hubby mentioned Ferrari world had the world's fastest roller coaster and we should go some day. Because i know this man and when he plans to do something, he actually gets it done. Roller coaster, I actually have never been in one even the smallest or simplest or slowest of them because i am someone who is totally afraid of the falling sensation even when a vehicle jumps on a hump ( i know you people may not have felt it. let me explain, it is the same feeling you get when you come down in a giant wheel, and yes i feel it even when a car jumps a hump, simply because i am afraid of it.)

And just like that one day my hubby calls from his office and tells me, their office is giving free tickets to ferrari world.. i honestly said really???he said yaaaa n aren't you excited? i am but it is on first come first sserve basis and also based on seniority and he was a relatively new employee... yippeee i thought there is hope we won't get it. I seriously don't understand why people enjoy such frightening experiences so much well my idea of fun begins with a book or a film and ends with a trip or a baskin robins ice cream. (Yeah i know i might be one of those boring kinds:P) Whatsoever i never understood fun where you have to be afraid that you may not live enough to tell the tale :P. And again on another day after a few weeks my hubby calls again, guess what, we got the free passes.. wah ADCO wah... is all i could think (ADCO being my hubby's company and the one that provides for everything right from the home i live in to the food i eat, i couldn't hate it but well i had every right to be angry, this is a little too much). 

In the following days i browse the net to see different pictures of the roller coaster track and reading experiences of people who jumped in to that, all i could feel was fear.. and i thought ok fine i can go there, enjoy some simpler rides and make him go in that alone.. And just like that when my fear of being compelled to ride in the world's fastest roller coaster was being buried under layers of hindi serials and english movies, there comes the next strike... My beloved cousin and childhood partner in crime is arriving in the city and just as i thought, we have decided to take him with us too... Well i could deal with one evil at a time. There was no way i will be able to fight them both and stay away from the roler coaster

So the d day comes and me along with my beloved husband and dear brother, sets off to ferrari world. There i practically got a lot of pics taken with a lot of cars (mostly in red colour) even though i didn't know the difference between any of them, well i did enjoy some rides and had fun there but the fear was still there as we were saving the roller coaster ride for the end. In between when we went to a smaller simpler roller coaster we were told that it was under repair and cannot go in there today so i was hoping against hope that somehow due to some miracle the same thing happens for the big one too. So thinking about all this i ascended the steps to the q. On the way my hubby was telling me do smile when the journey starts. They take pictures at that point and we can buy it. Huhhhhhhh all i could think was is this man even aware of what i am feeling??? i was wondering if all that would be left of me in the end was a picture. Not to forget my evil cousin who was reminding me of a roler coaster accident in the film final destination.. well thank you so much for reminding i was trembling from top to bottom. 

And finally we reach near it and i see my first glimpse of what looks like a bullet to me. Some foriegners did notice my plight and told me  don't worry you won't feel a thing after 4 seconds. So we finally stand in the q. There are about 3 batches of people to go before us. We see one of them go and come back. And the two fools standing in front of me and behind me are saying " oh there are two roller coasters waooo"  I really didn't care enough to correct them and say no gadhooo that is the same one coming back in around a minute just like a bullet. Well let them face it on their own. And finally our turn came. My hand and feet was trembling so much that i could hardly get into that and get my hold on. And first they roll us out and stop and the point where we are given the push . The push that takes us from 0 - 240 in 4 seconds.. and that happens finally. I could not hold my neck straight in the first fall. And in the worst of my interactions with the hot humid desert wind, i just could not lift my head back. I opened my eye for a split second and i thought i would faint right there. But somehow i did hold on and survived it alive. Thanks to the prayers of all my loved ones i was still alive when i came out. 

My hubby held my hand and helped me out of the roler coaster. My head was still spinning. My stomach was churning. I was not sure if i had a vomiting sensation or head ache or neck pain. Well even the most comfortable bus in the smoothest of the abu dhabi roads felt like i was riding a roler coaster on the way back. 

But someone inside me was telling, even facing the worst of the fears was worth it just for a smile on your loved one's face. And dear readers, if you ever want to ride in a roller coaster, please do so in veega land... it is much easier and seemingly safe. :P

Friday, August 3, 2012

നിനക്കായി



















എന്റെ ഓരോ ചുവടും നിന്നിലെക്കാണെന്ന് നീ ധരിച്ചു 
ഞാന്‍ നടന്നത് എന്നിലെക്കായിരുന്നു 
എന്റെ അസ്ഥിത്വം തേടിയായിരുന്നു
ആ യാത്രയില്‍ നീ എന്റെ സഹയാത്രികനായി
വിശ്വസ്തനായ ഒരു സഹയാത്രികന്‍ 
പക്ഷെ ആ യാത്ര എന്റേത് മാത്രം ആയിരുന്നു
അതിന്റെ നന്മയും തിന്മയും എന്റെ മാത്രം അവകാശം 
വഴിയില്‍ എങ്ങോ വീണ കുപ്പിവളകള്‍ നീ പെറുക്കി 
അത് നിനക്കായ് കൊഴിഞ്ഞതെന്നു നീ ധരിച്ചു
പക്ഷെ അവ എന്റെ വഴിയിലെ മുള്ളുകള്‍ ആകെണ്ടവയായിരുന്നു 
എന്റെ ദുഃഖം നീ നെഞ്ചോടു ചേര്‍ത്തു
എന്റെ പാത രക്തം പൊഴിഞ്ഞു തെളിയെന്ടതു ആയിരുന്നു
നീ പുഷ്പം വിരിച്ച വീഥിയില്‍ എനിക്ക് എന്നെ തേടാന്‍ കഴിഞ്ഞില്ല 
പുഷ്പത്തിന്റെ  മൃതുലതയെ സ്നേഹിച്ചട്ടില്ല 
ഞാന്‍ എന്നും സ്നേഹിച്ചത് മുള്ളുകള്‍ ഉള്ള 
എന്ടെത് മാത്രം ആയ വഴിയെ ആയിരുന്നു
എങ്കിലും എനികായി കുപ്പിവള തുട്ടുകള്‍ സുക്ഷിച്ച നിന്നെ 
എനിക്ക് കൈ വിടാനായില്ല ഞാന്‍ നടന്നു നിന്റെ  കരം ഗ്രഹിച്ചു
എന്നില്‍ നിന്നു ദൂരെ എങ്കിലും നിനക്ക് അരികെ 
എനിക്കായി ജീവിക്കാന്‍ ഇനിയും ഒരു ജീവിതം വെറും എന്ന പ്രതീക്ഷയില്‍ 
ഈ ജന്മം ഞാന്‍ നിനക്കായി  മാറ്റിവെക്കുന്നു