A new year begins with hopes, dreams, expectations.. and what not….
Well for someone like me, for whom the only definition of success is happiness, it is not so. It starts with a question,” what will make me happy this year?” and the answer???
Hmmm no points for guessing I jus want to be normal, not that I am some weird person, but there are some people in this world, (I believe atleast a few) for whom being normal just isn’t an option. And I know this very well because am one of those lucky souls.
For those of you who don’t understand this, I can explain, it is something like this that whenever someone has to pick one from a crowd including you, it is default that YOU will be chosen. I mean it. Really sometimes I even wonder is it wishing me that atleast this time it should not be me that brings this down on me again?
Not that you are very attractive or on the converse strikingly bad looking, but it is like a sword that is hanging up above your head. This sometimes really bugs to the extend that whenever you choose a dress to go out, the only thing you can think about is it should not be too good or too bad to attract attention.
And the real life situations these “chosen” people land on…. Huh better not to mention. I am sure none of these people would ever dare to sneak out with a bf/gf because it is default that you will meet someone you know and hopefully not your parents. And not to mention what we say, I don’t know how it is always exactly “what not to be said” in that occasion just pops out of my mouth. But yes you will know that was wrong once the after effects like a few tears, broken hearts, spoiled partys, etc start showing up J
Imagine going on a tour with a big group and if there is a pit on one side of the road, or a stone lying somewhere, who should trip and fall??? Yes of course, you are right. And it dosen’t happen unless there is a big crowd to embarrass you.
well it is always not so bad to be like that, because sometimes it pays off. For example, if there is someone you genuinely like, it is guaranteed that either that person will be weird just like you or very different from the crowd. I don’t know how many of you will believe this but you can easily pick chosen people by the number of “lucky draws” or lottery tickets they win. Ah yes not to mention the tests they clear if luck is the basis and not knowledge.
I have heard that by the end of one birth, our soul will probably have a very good idea of what it wants in it’s next life to go ahead in it’s journey, I always wonder, how exactly did my soul land in this conclusion? Hi hi hi.
So this new year my resolution was that I will attempt to stay out of trouble atleast for one good day. So I switched off my phone, said leave from college and sat at home watching tv. C’mmon I was just asking for one single day and guess what, trouble came knocking on the door. So now I know there is no escape, face it dear, THIS IS YOUR LIFE and his won’t stop till some miracle happens. And what that is, well I don’t know. May be this is just god’s way of taking me to my destiny. Wherever or whatever that is, I can tell you the journey is not very easy but interesting enough though.
So for now, I continue to live MY LIFE and keep adding to the book my friends call “mandu’s mandatharangal” and thanking all those people who was always there to lend a helping hand when they saw me falling...
